Ian here!! get ready to read the greatest post yet!!

So here i am to start MY GREATEST POST EVER!! here i am in my buddies crib, listening to Dj sammy- Heaven



where the journey begins..

First day i met her. We were in the same school.. one thing comes to my mind, sweet.. I thought i died and gone to heaven cause i was looking at an angel... how wrong i was...

weeks passed.. we were still merely classmates.. our conversations?Note exchanges, solutions to example questions, studies..ntg more..

one friday night, we went 'yamcha'.. tat is one of the worst yamcha session ever in my life.. discovering she has a boyfriend.. my world starts to spin.. everything seems upside down..my eyes burn with fury equal to those damned taiwan sausages.

the begginning of the real journey..

every morning i wake up.. it's a new day.. but the same shit.. the moment i wake up, the first thing i thought of was, 'is today the day?' ,'will i get to c her today?'.. nope, well then i can get another hour of sleep.. wait, i get to c her today, we have the same class today.. woopie! i jumped off the bed n headed straight to the shower.. the thought of seeing her was my drive,my fuel, my inspiration,motivation and my very breathe and will to live each blasted day...

every night before i sleep.. i picture her in my mind.. her smile,her diamond eyes, that panteen hair. it's a shame to call the great wall of china one of the 7 wonders of the world but not her smile.. her cute little voice.. so sweet.. her little gestures that drives me nutz.. i've found heaven..

each day has been going on like that.. endless hours of day-dreaming about her.. countless heart stopping moments each time she was near.. for months, this has been a routine..

irony..

after weeks of hard studies.. it's finally exam day.. i was so confident in the paper.. started off writing my name on the answer sheets.. n i ter-wrote her name on it, in the name column! and i didnt realize it utill the teacher pointed it out to me!!! i know i'm in love.. but this much?

rerun..

'happiest day in my life! i found out she broke up with her boyfriend (or ex- whatever).. well, maybe i should feel sad for her, or at least i acted sad.. but deep in my heart, i was jumping with joy!!'

i started calling her daily.. chit-chat a little.. even though usually it's a few minutes conversation of 'how are u'.. but her voice simply melts my heart..

things got better everyday.. we got closer with each passing day.. then things turn out to be like a hill.. when u reach the top, there's nowhere to go but down..

i never did find the courage to express everything to her.. although she already knows i have feelings for her.. however, i have not the slightest idea of how she feels for me.. but i was too afraid.. too afraid to try. too afraid to risk it all and lay my heart out... the thought of risking a great friendship scares the hell out of me..

days passed.. weeks goes by.. months flew by.. and before i knew it.. it's been 2 years..

all journeys end at some point..

'they say the journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step.. but they never did mention that the first step was the hardest of the whole journey..'

it was a usual yamcha session.. it was only 3 of us.. me, her n her ex- (or maybe not).. they were hugging around.. tickling each other.. i feel like a spotlight.. it was so awkward.. but the worst is i can really feel the pain in my heart..

epilogue..

this is my story.. how it goes from here is totally up to me. wish me luck -the beginning or the end of a journey is not that important, but its the way u stride throught it that really counts.- peace to alll- -ian-